Christmas was slowly creeping up and Joan had made the decision she didn’t want to visit her family that year. After much internal conflict and rumination over what to do (the age-old battle of head vs. heart), this was a huge turning point for Joan, defying her mother and fighting the hold she had over Joan’s life. After not hearing back from her mother and subsequently not being able to sleep for several nights, Joan re-enforced her decision by sending a text message to her mother to say she wouldn’t be visiting this year. Almost like magic, her mother replied immediately, pretending that everything was ok and never mentioning the late-night call. Her delusional mother was oblivious to how this act simply validated Joan’s gut feeling that she was being manipulated.
This is just one of the dysfunctional games people play to regain control of the family dynamic and ensure everyone fulfils their designated roles. Emotional blackmail and passive aggressive attempts at worry are just two of the weapons of choice. However, consciously knowing this rarely gives comfort to those emotionally enmeshed in such families.
Creating strong physical and emotional boundaries from a toxic family are easier during normal day to day of life but over the festive season this can prove a challenge and create a sense of isolation or loneliness. It can be a time of great dread when people have no choice but to at least make an appearance and show their face. Guilt can also play a factor, especially when there are children involved, no reasonable adult wants to deprive a child a present because of personal difficulties.
Here are some of the approaches I encourage my clients to take when re-engaging with family over Christmas:
Accept others have their own reality
Many of my clients try, and fail to understand the perceptions, beliefs and behaviours of family members. Some even attempt to change their family, by reasoning, fighting, or ignoring them but this rarely works. Despite living under the same roof and outwardly having the same influences, the complexity of human life is that our unique psychological reality is shaped by so many subtle and not so subtle events both inside and outside the family home. The chances of you and your family “getting” each other are slim and the energy used to try could be better spent on area’s in life which are in your control.
Alcohol brings out the worst in many. Drink acts as an unhinged mediator in any conversation, provoking emotional reactions quicker than some afternoon TV talk show hosts. When inhibitions are suppressed, guards are dropped and opportunities for further unhealthy behaviours are created.
Set your agenda
You decide how long you will attend; you decide who you will, and won’t engage with and you decide what topic will be discussed. Your boundaries belong to you!
Build an exit strategy
Whether it is a prior engagement or an ‘emergency’ phone call from a friend, make sure your exit isn’t harder than it needs to be.
Create a buffer
Sometimes (not always), a third party to the family can act as a safety buffer against unhealthy behaviours and unreasonable expectations. This could involve bringing a friend who has been de-briefed on the situation or meeting family in a neutral location, such as a hotel or the home of someone else.
Keep your head out of the game
There is more to life than family and your life should not be defined by them, but by your goals, passions, hobbies and challenges. Over Christmas you may have to be physically present, but your mind can be elsewhere. Some clients have found switching off to the present familial event and focusing on plans for that evening, the next day or even next year can help reduce stress and the impact of the visit. It may appear rude that you are not listening to them but chances are they will think badly of you no matter what you do.
Dis-empower the collective
If it appears your family has teamed up against you, it is incredibly hard to not be intimidated by the collective. This is true of any group where I’ve observed individuals changing opinions/attitudes in a blink of an eye to not stand out.
To tackle this, it can be useful to focus only on each individual. This can be very difficult at first, especially if they seem to be in collusion and working together against you. But seeing them as separate entities may disempower them and identify fearful conformity. Look for the hierarchies, who is pulling the strings, who is doing what was told of them and who is mimicking behaviours to take the attention away from themselves and onto you.
Staying out of the drama
If the family is particularly emotive and confrontational, you may find yourself drawn into an argument. When this happens, it is essential to pay close attention to the difficult psychosomatic (i.e. body/mind) symptoms in the lead up to, during and after the exchange. These includes heart racing, hands shaking, mind racing, or all the other stress-response reactions.
These physical signs may prompt you to react, but ‘try’ your best to anchor your body (and your emotions) and remain as stoic as possible in the face of aggravation.
Difficult emotions must be expressed but to the right people in the right way. This could involve calling a friend after the engagement or journaling, but do something to purge some of the residual impact of the visit.
Christmas can also be time of deep unhappiness for those not in contact with family any more. One my clients Joe, who was estranged from his manipulative parents for several years, hated Christmas. He was often referred as the ‘Grinch’ by his group of friends as they could not understand how he could not enjoy himself over this period. They could also not comprehend the wave of nostalgia for the good times and the massive sense of loss he felt over the situation with his parents.
The turning point for Joe was a sudden offer to travel to Asia for Christmas. The change of environment, climate and culture altered a time he normally associated with sadness to excitement and adventure and the experience stayed with him ever since. Now few will have the option of travelling abroad, but being open to something different over Christmas can shift patterns of unhappiness to something less unhappy (or dare I say, even enjoyment). Being open is the challenge here, withdrawing from offers and invites may be easier, but you are simply depriving yourself of your right to support and your presence alone may make all the difference to someone else’s Christmas.
I really hope this helps individuals struggling with family and I wish everyone a great Christmas and a happy 2018.